“one of a kind”. A phrase used so often, but never has it felt more fitting than to describe you Liv, I can confidently say I have never and will never meet another person like you. Someone with such an enormous laugh but with a heart 10 times bigger, who was constantly putting others first, bringing joy, love and warmth everywhere you went, someone who didn’t waste time with too many words but instead demonstrated your care and consideration daily with your actions, a quality all too rare and precious. I am someone who can so readily express myself with words but this has left me shocked, stunned and speechless, we may not have remained close until your unexpected end but I was always thinking of you, wishing you well and rooting for you but always with the intention of continuing to check in and live content knowing you were doing the same, I replay the words when the news was broken to me that you were gone, a world once vivid became eternally fractured. You were my best friend, my partner in crime, my happy place, I have always told people that the most fun and care free days of my life were the days I spent with you. I am someone who can sometimes get too caught up in the doom and gloom of life but I never had that problem when I was with you, you were so full of spirit and constantly seeking ways to have fun, it was hard to feel down around you. We laughed endlessly, done so many stupid things and created memories that will stay with me forever, most prominent being that through an unconventional and unexpected turn of events, you introduced me to my soul mate, you are a part of our story forever, whenever someone asks how we met, you are the pivotal factor and someone who we will tell our future kids about one day, my beautiful, crazy, one of a kind best friend who changed my life forever, who will always have a special place in my heart, who inspires me every day to be a better person, whose memory I will carry with me and will spread as wide as I can, so many people could learn so much from the morals and messages you put out into the world and it would be a much better place for it. I love you Liv, I really truly, whole heartedly love you. I wish I told you more but that’s a lesson I have learnt and will take with me, to live and love fearlessly in honour of you. Goodbye for now my angel. it was an honour to have known you, loved you and be loved by you. You are with me forever and always. 🤍

You were perfect Love you always

Dear Livvy, I thought we had a whole lifetime left to experience together. Sisters till the very end, except your end is way too soon. I know you never wanted much, you were a simple soul, but I knew that I was going to carry you through life and put you on the right path (even though you were too proud and stubborn to listen/let me help!😉). I was always going to be there to make sure you were ok and to always do my best to protect you when life begins its crushing process. I wish I could have taken it from you Liv and been the one to have had it instead. I am the older sister and your protector, it wasn’t fair for you to have been the one to carry that. I sit and wish for that every day since you have been gone. I cannot deal with the fact there is no resolution to this and I cannot fix this for you. Now we don’t get another moment together in these bodies in this life, Liv. I am so angry we can’t laugh again together, I am so angry I cannot hear your laugh again. We both had the same morals, principles and weird sense of humour and that is now lost in a past history that I can never unlock and experience again. Instead, we have to meet as a new form. I search and feel for your soul and I find you in those small moments when our universes allow us to interconnect. You are always somewhere, we just have to tap in! I wish I had known the ticking time bomb of your life; we could have squeezed so much more in. But that’s life, isn’t it? We never know how much time we have. I am just thankful you spent your life doing what you wanted, getting drunk and doing hilarious things (literally most weekends😉), spending quality time with friends and family and living by your own rules not the ones society creates for you (well done - some of us never get there!). Your friends absolutely love you, and they always say the same things about you, how kind you were, how thoughtful you were and how funny (and explicit!) your humour was 🤣. I am so proud of you and you are so loved by me, you were the person that I loved the most and you always will be. I am so sorry I didn’t say this enough. I know this wasn’t our way and that you hated too much affection. I can’t bear to accept there is a future which you are not in. That is not one I ever ever ever conceived nor one that I can comprehend. I will forever have a Livvy-shaped hole in my heart which can never be filled. The day that your life ended, mine did too. A whole history shared between us has been lost, a history no one could ever understand because it was just ours. We are taught early in life that siblings are to grow old together, that we lose everyone around us but have each other at the very end. This was not our journey, we do not get the luxury of life following its natural course. Ours has gone another way, a darker and sadder way. You are the most generous person I know, who is always so lovely and kind to everyone. There is not one bad bone in your body. You did not fester in sadness nor sunk to the pettiness and misery of others. Your soul shines like an aquamarine and your laugh will forever ricochet in my ears. You deserved so much more than this world could have ever given you, I always knew and felt you were made of something far more beautiful, you were an earth angel. I hope you are somewhere tranquil with nanny, grandad, Spike and the rest of the dogs. I bet you are already teasing and winding nanny up😉! I have 25 years to cherish of you and I will come find you again very soon, I know you’ll be waiting!❤️